Still sick

I have spent the past few days with tummy distress. I am ready for it to be over.

So now, I am laying on the couch with my kitties, and napping intermittently.

After all of this not wanting to eat at all business, I better have some sort of loss tomorrow.

Also, a big part of me worries that when I come home from work sick, everyone thinks I am faking it.

interesting

yesterday, i got a severe pain in my side. like a cramp. normally something like that would come and then go.

i still have it. I also have a matching pain on my right side. and some nausea. it succccks.

also, i didn't make my run, what with the overt desire to vomit and the side clutching.

what the?

last night i dreamt about the litter box. does this mean i am full of crap?

SNOW

wow. there's a lot of snow out there.

my dad called to check in. about 1 minute into the call he got another call, so he told me he would call me back and hung up.

then he called back and said that it was my sister calling him. i made a joke about showing favoritism amongst my siblings. we talked for a few minutes, and he got another call, and hung up.

it's sure nice to be important

Blah. It's not that fun to be me right now.

It doesn't sound like I am going to get my elliptical. Apparently, I have not done a very good job of pleading my case to Raj. Nevermind that the elliptical at the fitness center is crap. Nevermind that it would be lovely not to have to bundle up to go to the fitness center, get all sweaty, and walk back in the cold.

Other things I am not getting? A newer car, new clothing, any thinner.

Things I got that I wanted? Delicious Chocolate Turtle coffee.

I'm so irritated that my entire self worth is wrapped up in the numbers on the scale. After a week of near perfect plan working, I stayed exactly the same. It's taken me 6 weeks to lose 2.6 lbs. This, of course, means that I am a tremendous failure. If I spoke to everyone else the way I speak to myself, I wouldn't have a friend in the world.

So, I am feeling really down right now, and I don't know how to stop feeling down. I think it's the weather. Blah.

observations from the elliptical

Perhaps eating meatloaf an hour before my run was not a good idea.

it is belicious and nutritious meatloaf made by me, emily the good, but certainly not pleasant sitting heavily while trying to work out.

trying to not garf now.

Recreational shopping

Yet again. We went to 2nd Wind. I think I like the Octane Q35 best of all. It's expensive, but not too expensive.

Also, I have been busting my butt on the fitness center elliptical, and I hopped on the ones at 2nd Wind, and they show me going more like 7 or 8 miles an hour. When I am really clicking along at the fitness center, I am usually under 4 MPH. I wonder if my workouts have been more effective than I think?

I think Raj might be ALMOST on board with this.